I have always loved that saying. I know its not completely true but it does help you realize that the reason you are going through hard times is so something good can happen. I totally believe that every thing we do in this life is to help us learn and to grow. Now if you are like me sometimes you feel like you have to go through a little more than you think is fair. But at the end of it you realize why it happened.
As you all know I have been having a hard time. Trying to figure out "Who is Afton?" I have been trying to put labels on me and figure out who I fit in with. This weekend I had an experience happen to me that I am not gonna talk about because it was not my wisest decision. I did something I knew I shouldn't because it was against what I have been told. But I did it any way, thinking it would make me feel better. Well it didn't, it actually made me feel like crap. But do I regret this decision? No I do not. Why you ask? It helped me figure out who I am. It helped me realize the type of person I am and the type of person I want to become.
Who am I? I am Afton, plain and simple. I cannot be put into a category and try to fit in with one person or another because it's not gonna happen. And now I am okay with that. I don't need to care what others think of me. I need to be me. I use to be so care free and not give a damn of what anyone thought. I did my own thing and was my own person. Some where a long the way I lost track of that girl and tried to be something I am not. I tried to be this timid quiet girl that tried not to stand out or act the way I wanted to out of the fear of what people would think. Well guess what? That is not me. If you know me you know I am not that person. I am loud, talkative, crazy, and a bit annoying at times, I tell you how it is no matter if you do not like it, I am loyal to my friend and family and I will be there when ever you need me, and I love the Lord with all my heart and I know he loves me. I know people change as they grow up become more mature but that doesn't mean I have to change myself completely. Just because I feel like I do not fit in does not mean I need to change to fit in. I need to be me. I need to do what I know is right, and I need to not let fears or doubt of things I do not understand hold me back from what I know is true.
So there you have it, I have figured out who I am. I am Afton, I am a mother, I am a wife, I am a friend, I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, I am not perfect, I have faults, I have failures, I am not like others, I am me, and that is okay.
