Faith

Oh man am I having  a hard time. Looks like we won't being getting our house. It hurt yes it does. But I am starting to be okay with it. Why do you ask?  Because I am trying to have more faith. Faith the Lord knows what he is doing. Faith that everything will work the way it should be and the way the Lord wants it to work not how I want it to work. So yes it hurts. Yes I am upset. But with my faith I will be alright. It will all be okay. 

1 Peter 5:6-7 “Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,  casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”

Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

Jeremiah 29:11-14a “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord…”

Hello Again!!!

I know I haven't posted a lot. Sometimes I start doing something and I quit after awhile but I think that maybe it will be good to continue on writing to see if it helps me and can help others. I am doing a lot better than the last time I have posted. I have been on medication for months and it does help me. I am not perfect though and sometimes I still have bad days but they are not as bad as they use to be. At this moment I am just so stressed. I seem to have a panic attack every day because of what is going on. It feels like something is just sitting on my chest all the time. I know its because I am trying to do everything by myself. Trying to get a new house, packing, cleaning, working, being a mom, being a wife and many other things. I know I should ask for help but I am stubborn.
I am trying to be more faithful and realize that the Lord knows what he is doing and he will help me. I am trying to remember whatever happens is his will, not mine.
I guess its because I really really want this house. It feels so right and everything seems to be working out for it. But at the same time in the back of my mind I feel like its gonna go bad.
I am trying to not be so negative. Maybe me writing all my frustrations down will help me. And maybe others will see if they are going through the same things they are not alone.