Every Little Things Gonna Be Alright.

I know I haven't wrote in a few weeks but this blog was just becoming a downer. I know I have issues and I am not the happiest person but I felt like I was just being to whiny so I stopped writing for awhile.

Well it seems like things might be getting better a little. Yes I still have bad days more frequently than not. And sometimes good days turn into bad days but that's okay. I think I am starting to get a handle on all of it.

Today for instance I got the girls out of PJs and brushed their hair and mine as well, which is sad but doesn't happen that often. I also started dinner for tonight, which hasn't happened in a really long time. And I did the dishes, which I haven't done in forever. I was doing good. Now I am just meh!
What that means is I am not happy but I am not super sad either. I just have no motivation. That is my biggest problem. I have no motivation to do anything. So when I don't do anything I than feel bad about myself which makes me depressed. Its a cycle that I am trying to break. So far I haven't done the best.

I need to have more confidence in myself and in what I can do. Right now I feel like whats the point nothing is ever going to change. But I need to tell myself that is not the case. I keep doing that but so far it hasn't kicked in yet. If that makes any sense.

I just wanted to write and let you all know I am doing okay. I am getting a little better every day. I know its because of my medication and I just need to remember when it does work its the medicine and I need to keep taking it for it to work. Which drives me nuts I just want to be able to do it on my own. Sometimes that's not the case but that's okay.

For now I will take what I can get. If its a few hours of motivation and happiness or just a few minutes. One day it will all be alright.

Thank you all for the support and listening to my sob story. One day it will be different. I just got to keep trying to believe that and one day it might just happen.